I started this journey 2.5 years ago on this project and I think it may finally be ready to see the light of day. Stay tuned to see where he turns up next… ( He’s so cute I may have to use him somewhere else too!!)
The time is now, it not next month after my son’s birthday, next week when things get a little better… I need to do it now. Its a commitment to myself that I can do this. I want to be able to create, which I do already, but with a focus on sharing it, getting it out, letting it live outside of my head.
Often at the end of the day, my head is numb, my brain is dead with the why and whine I have heard all day. In the past year I have made a concious effort to eat healthier , exercise more, and have my family watch less tv. So why not take care of my creative side? Good question. Fear. Fear of being laughed at. Fear of being belittled. Noting hurts worse than knowing you used your 1 hour of quiet in the house to make a complete pile of junk and now you have to clean it all up with two kids dragging on your leg, wondering why you are only giving them half of your attention. Being a failure as an artist is one thing, but being a failure as a mother seems completely unacceptable…
So I am here, I am making a commitment to be more present in my art life, which i suspect in turn will make me more present in my everyday life. Anyone else out there?